The highs and lows of being a Highly Sensitive Person
Can’t stop these feelings I got!
Hi! It’s Charluxx.
As an Highly Sensitive Person, I feel everything. I FEEL everything. Like my nervous system is in overdrive.
A light touch of my skin proves intense, and can sometimes be almost unbearable. My hearing is solicited to the point that it is overwhelming in a crowd. I go into sensory overload.
Interestingly and somewhat contradictorily, I have a very high pain threshold. A strange dichotomy for sure. A light touch to my face is quite uncomfortable, but I can burn myself or break a bone and not even wince. Nature is incredible. There is a unique balance in life that is simultaneously logical and illogical... but always magical. Negativity being finely balanced with positivity.
Like the saying goes “Good things can come from bad situations.”
For all it’s disadvantages I am incredibly grateful to have this condition.
It has proved incredibly useful throughout my life. Because I am especially sensitive to subtle stimuli, I have been able to achieve extraordinary feats.
I ride a brutal motorcycle, an Aprilia RSV4, and I ride it hard. That is also why I was able to race cars. Turns out most riders and race car drivers are HSP by nature. It makes sense. You need to be one with your vehicle, feel the transmitted information, integrate that incredibly precise feedback into instant reaction and translate it into maximum forward drive.
Nerves are sensorial: touch, smell, sight, earring, taste, but they are also emotional. Our body is really a vehicle for our brain, our central nervous system. In this context, it is easy for me to be overwhelmed.
Sometimes it feels like I am raw nerves.
Turns out not everyone is fine with that. Life is more intense when your nerves are over-solicited. I can be hard to deal with. Not that I do it on purpose, I’m no diva. I just feel things more intensely than most people do. I often respond in kind. I am aware of it. It’s just that I can be intense as a result.
I feel things acutely, mentally and physically. As such, I become impatient quickly. Being aware of this is good because I can temper it. I try hard anyway. I’ve also learned to shield myself. Naturally, I’ve tended towards quiet solitude. Meditation. Yoga.
Musically, it makes me sensitive to subtle vibrations and variations. I am attuned. I hear each sound, each instrument, clearly and distinctly. I often feel that I am one with music. I love that.
If that sounds like someone you know—or even you—I recommend patience.
Patience always being a good answer for anything anyway.
Hopefully this journey of discovery into the very soul of me has been:
a) informative
b) interesting
c) revelatory
d) all of the above ;-)
Stay groovy my friends.
Peace and Love,
Charluxx.
p.s.: here are a few resources if you’d like to know more: